"Getting it back with that terrible feeling…" After a fairly successful 13th place and 7th place finish, at yesterday’s @crca Grant’s Tomb Crit, @bryanbanducci and myself are back at it. Thanks, @kingkogshop
You can’t find intimacy—you can’t find home—when you’re always hiding behind masks. Intimacy requires a certain level of vulnerability. It requires a certain level of you exposing your fragmented, contradictory self to someone else. You running the risk of having your core self rejected and hurt and misunderstood.
Big trip to Maryland in the Honda Toaster. Excited for the final big weekend of my racing season. Great looking course. With a lot of elevation, off camber everywhere, and lots of mud. @kingkogshop @allcitycycles
It’s an odd compulsion to tell a story correctly. We feel it every time we tell a joke or interrupt our spouse in the middle of the one about the time we drunkenly broke into the London Zoo. Wait, go back, you say. Wait, go back and start over.
And maybe this is not really borne of a desire to get the beginning right, but to avoid ever having to come to the end. I know it’s futile to go on with my screenplay. And to tell the truth, it isn’t offering me the same kind of comfort that it used to. The story will end the way it ends. All I really needed was to get this far. As Obi-Wan and Jarbulba, Anakin and the queen fly off in the desert planet, the point where the adventure is just starting, with everything still promised and unknown. Because beginnings are really the only happy endings.